Daily Report

So far today has remained pretty calm and quiet. Thanks to Paul and Chandra, I am working on my depression a bit more and today Jenn's doctor set me up with a counselor of my own to talk to tomorrow. He did however think it was a good thing that I am still continuing to read my sister's journals. I will still admit that I was an ass to my Jenn most of her life, I do realize what pain I have caused and the last 8 months have been enough to change anyone's life. Maybe not enough to change my faith and beliefs which everyone seems to be concerned with but like my sister said in her most recent letter to me. It is a choice that I have to make and if there really is a God waiting out there somewhere then He/She will continue waiting until I am ready to make that choice but right now is not that time for me. I still kind of feel that if there was a God then things wouldn't be so bad but at least today things have shown a slight improvement. They have removed to medications that were inducing the coma and they have cut the vent back by 25% throughout the day and other than a quick sharp spike in her blood pressure after taking her of the meds, once it dropped we have had no other signs or worries. They are continuing to monitor and we are hoping that home will be a soon result. I will try and keep you updated and although I still feel that texting updates to EVERYONE is too painful, there are a few that I will still continue to post too. Those being the closest of friends and family so please honor that because I am trying to keep myself sain.